Life Lately

13 MARCH, 2025

Leaving Winter Nurtured

This Beginning of 2025

was not starting at all , like let me tell you I wanted to rest. After October 2024 I was BURNT OUT. I didn't even know If I wanted to work anymore. I had a break from then to January 2025.

AND I literally just fell in love with my job all over again. Just JUMP BACK ON THAT HORSE! Haha.. But seriously why am I okay ? Why am I staying?

WELL, I have been doing a lot of reading 2024 and especially 2025 I have been in my self help reading Era.

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Books I am currently reading the very popular.....

01.

THE MOUNTAIN IS YOU

This is showing me the way I am self sabotaging myself , and how the reasons times might seem really hard is because I am ready to grow beyond that phase in my life .

02.

SECURE LOVE

This has been such fun read for me and my husband during our daughters nap time ,( not kidding everyday, we talk about it and cry, and just addicted ) it has really helped us to understand ourselves and each other and has really helped our communication.

We really reccomend.

03.

ATOMIC HABITS

I read this in very small amounts but every time I am so motivated . It helps me to see if I at least a try a little every day 1% better every day is 365% by the end of the year.

And also Habit stacking or making systems I can focus that will bring me closer to my goal and to focus on those rather than the goal itself.

04.

ANXIOUSLY ATTATCHED

This one was the one I started with cause I am really learning my attachment style . But now after reading secure love idk if this book is for me . It is very heavy and I don't think I quite understand it . But I have learned about connecting with my inner nurturers from this book when I am feeling like I am hard to love.

Continuing on...

Really getting into my Nitty gritty into therapy , Cause I am telling you my depression was in a bad way after thanks giving. and as a mom , I can't let that happen anymore . Which I am so glad Cause not letting it happen for myself should have also been enough . So I booked the appointment and got on a great anti depressant.

We have been really focusing on our home , our family , our marriage .

In doing this we have really evaluated.. We are not going to Compromise our life doing things we don't want to do or hang out with people that make us feel bad about ourselves.

We all need to recognize about ourselves that we all have something valuable about ourselves and that we deserve love and we deserve to take care of ourselves.

WE HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF OURSELVES in order to care for others.

Not to be selfish by any means . But I was really In a routine of self neglect.

I'm talking ... Not willing to take a shower in worry that I would miss out on time with my husband... when all we would be doing is watching another episode of survivor.

But now giving myself that care and that distance, I have that connection with him and my self and that feeling of fulfillment even better than before.

We do need to be there and take care of each other , but If the other can't be in that space at the moment, then you need to healthily care for yourself in that moment and not wait till someone else can.

Go pray, journal , shower , hair makeup, laundry, workout , go for a walk, do your hobbies , watch your own show that you like , read a book, browse Pinterest , do Some bible study , Plan out your routines.

Don't stew.. Don't wallow

This has changed our routines and made it so we really love our time together as a family. And I have really learned to take care of myself so much better .

THATS a HUGE reason I am not leaving photography anytime soon.

It gives me so much confidence and is such a huge part of my identity. It has helped us to really accomplish our goals as a family. While yes I am a photographer cause I love the connection and emotional aspect of it . But let's be honest we all work to make money . With that money from my lovely Clients My husband is able to work very part time which makes him able to be the absolute best dad, and we get to live the majority of our lives together. But also in the coming weeks we will be able to pay off our house and be completely debt free.

So thank you for your support cause I feel like such an awesome successful woman building this business all on my own.

Finally being able to start the life Joel and I planned before we got married and had our whoopsie baby . Being married pre covid and having a baby immediatlely post covid . We had plans of traveling and being in the full time ministry.

Now being married 7 years , we can start working on our house our own. Finally start planning that Hawaii trip ( hit me up if you want to elope)

And we have been doing so well on our inner work that we are starting to see it on the outside

Feeling more confident among friends, Being able to love others cause we don't feel so worthless about ourselves , so we enjoy the ministry more . Letting go of our guilt and self doubt so that we can pray and study .

Which it is so true "Pray Constantly" Do not give up and you will gain peace.

Do not be fooled , things are not perfect . I am not perfect. But we have grown and I am strong enough to grow further.

Thanks for reading this far ! Until Next time .